Senior Year...Beginnings.

It's been too long since I've last blogged. (lol) Well, just to recap my first week..I hated it. The school, won't count my ACC credit so I plan to test out of PE or take it online. I'm not getting German..but I do have a class with Travis now..so that's a plus. I think out of the whole day, my favorite class is Anatomy and Physiology. I hate science, but the teacher is so nice and she's absolutely hilarious. Plus, I actually talk to people in that class. I am hating my English class, which is nothing new..but like..the teacher is so CONDESCENDING! I'm not even kidding. She treats us like little kids...we have to turn in vocabulary words..and she's requiring that we read 150 words or more per six weeks. I do it anyway, but she is making us write essays on it. It's an AP class..and she's REQUIRING notebook checks. She's is giving handouts and not notes..and she's acting like I have no idea how to pass a test. It's frustrating. It's just the way she says things. I can't explain it. 'I don't expect many of you guys to pass', 'I have never had less then 70% of my students pass, but I don't expect that from y'all'. Ugh..I can't stand it. Like, because we attend Del Valle High School..none of us are intelligent at all. I always have problems with my English teachers, but she's just like...juvenile. I'm an auditory learner, handouts DON'T help me. I'm so frustrated with the class. I actually miss Mrs. McCombs...and that's really hard for me to admit. We have to get all the books we read approved by her--who are you to tell me what to read? Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. I am just so frustrated. There are a few students who know what we're doing and we're all so disgusted with what she's saying. I don't like her..and I don't like how she treats her students. I ask a question and she totally ignores me. I answer her questions and she stops letting me answer. She thinks we're all idiots, but I don't think an idiot could score a 3 on last year's test. I understand this test is over literature, but don't tell me I'm an idiot..without thinking twice! Ugh. I suck at multiple choice, but I can write. Give me an essay already..and I'll prove you wrong!

Anyways, my other favorite class is Tech Theatre. I'm not loud and don't do drama well, so I opted for my fine arts credit to be Technical Theatre. This class has been so fun..so far. I really am looking forward to it. It's easy..and the teacher is great. =] I have a PE class, and what kind of PE class makes you walk around a gym for half an hour? They won't count my credit..but they'll make me walk around a Gym. I'm hating it because these little freshman, i mean sophomores, are so vulgar and disgusting. They keep making nasty comments about how they want to ________ random girls. I told them one day..to just stop because girls aren't attracted to little boys who do nothing but talk. They make fun of people all the time..I always tell them to stop. I tried ignoring it..but it's hard when they sit next to you during stretches..it's uncomfortable. I just tell them to stop when they start being stupid. For the most part, they have stopped, I know i totally sounded like a teacher or something..but I really don't care. It scared them..the rest of the class thinks they are immature..so it makes me laugh. What's with high school students standing up for what's right when they realize it's not cool to be an idiot? They all laughed at these boys..but as soon as I tell them it's not funny and that they need to stop..suddenly they agree and stop laughing? I guess I just made them realize that they can have fun and be mature about it.

So, I'm hoping this year gets better. It's already looking better. I'm kind of sad because I can't wear skirts to school because of PE. We don't get to dress out. I think I'm going to anyway and I'll change at lunch..and walk around in b-ball shorts the rest of the day. lol.

-Becky

Tomorrow? A senior?

Okay, so summer being over is making me a little crazy. I need to do laundry..and get whatever it is I need for High School, into my backpack tonight. Tomorrow morning, really isn't going to be much fun, because I'm going to be in the counselor's office, because they keep screwing up my transcript. I've been down there so many times about this, until they finally said the counselors weren't seeing students..what the heck? It's their JOB. They will see me, because my Dad is going with me. Being 17, it's really odd to be like..yeah..my parents are taking care of it, but they really won't listen to me..and they push me around. It got old...my Dad gets what he wants..because he's the adult. (crazy, huh?) I mean, they get mad when students bring down their parents, but if the school doesn't listen, then what else are we supposed to do..? lol.

This year is going to be weird, last week, when the counselors wouldn't see us, we made friends (me and Travis) with Ms. Longoria, the hall monitor...and made sure all the others were on friendly terms with a bunch of the APs. I learned last year, that this makes life a whole lot easier..at least at Del Valle, because they trust you more. Not that I'm going to do something outrageously bad, but you can walk around without people screaming at you..and that makes life so much easier.

A friend, I've been going to school with for a long time, graduated this summer, actually two of them, and it's going to be weird to not see them or hang out with them. Yesterday, we went to one of the graduates baby showers, (that's why she graduated) and it was a lot of fun just to hang out with her again for a little while...afterwards we went to the mall..and looked around in baby stores..why is everything so expensive? She was telling us about how her and her boyfriend, could barely afford the doctor bills..and I felt kind of bad...it really forces you to grow up. Thank goodness her mom is as supportive as humanly possible, without taking away personal responsibility. She is letting them live with her for free..and is helping out some with buying baby stuff. I'm going to spend some money from each of my paychecks to help out to, because I know that they are both trying their best to make things work..and they need some help. I'm going to call her when I get paid again....and ask what else she needs for the baby. I thought it was weird how she invited friends, but only people who at the end of the year, showed her some kind of support. So many people were just so mean about the pregnancy..it's not like it's something you can take back. I'm also really grateful that I don't have to go through something like this....because of the things that I've been taught.

Anyways, i don't know what to expect out of this year..but I'll post again tomorrow..so that I can tell you how my scheduling/transcript problems are going down.

Oh, I'ma try and test out of certain classes. lol. =] It's going to cost me $60..so I don't know when/how I'm going to afford it.

Thank you, Sister Simonsen for the nomination for the tag. Not really sure what I'm supposed to do since I didn't win. lol. But, I'm going to place a link to her page. =]
-Becky

Another Summer Blog!

Sadly, I think this is going to be the last blog until school starts!! I'm really excited for it to start again, I miss the brain stimulation! I'm not looking forward to many of my classes because they put me in classes i didn't want or ask for, but I'm going to keep my schedule how it is, because, I don't want to argue with them anymore! I have so many "sleep" classes, I hope I'm able to get some sleeping in! (I know teachers hate it..) I'm a senior; finally. I was really sad to hear that some of my favorite staff members left! Mr. Van Geem, the german teacher is teaching at Lehman now, we get a new one..i don't know if I'm going to like him or not. And Mr. Conrardy left, he is/was he AP coordinator. I was shocked...and disappointed because he's ugh, i don't know...really good at his job. So this year is going to be so much different then all my other years, because I'm not used to not having teachers that I like! Of course, the main ones are still there, so I'm not going to worry just yet!!

So, for the remainder of my summer, I'm pretty sure I'll be working! I'm not sure if I like it, I've been on drive-thru a lot lately, and I'm really tired of it already. lol. Today, I was on register and it's so much SLOWER then drive-thru. I like the challenge of drive-thru..I just don't feel like I'm very good at it. LOL! Everyone is really cool, I'm just being super shy, which is both odd and not for me. I'm shy, but only around people I don't know, minus church people, for the most part!

Savior of the World was amazing..I feel like we really made a difference in peoples lives. I can't wait for the DVD's so I can find out how we all looked! I really hope that I get to share it with people that I know. I'm also really excited, because Travis decided he wanted to learn more about the gospel, he said he probably wasn't going to be baptized, but that he's interested..and that's always where it all starts. I just needa find somewhere to have to teach..because my house and his house are not working out very well.

That's pretty much all, lol.
-Becky!

Finally, a summer to remember?

So, I finally got a job! Woot...I'm working at the Culvers on William Cannon. I'm really excited to start...I start on Monday at 6 pm. =]. I'm supposed to have Khaki's, so I went and bought some, they provide shorts, but I didn't want to wear shorts. I have 1 pair of Capri's and two pairs of pants. I don't like them, because they are kind of old. lol. I couldn't find any good ones at Target for a decent price, plus I'm going to work in them, so the more conservative the better? lol.

I've been shopping a lot lately, I guess that's just a summer thing for me, but I've been pretty frugal about it..so thats a definite plus. I go to Ross, a lot. haha. I found jeans for ten dollars! I bought one pair and then went back the next day with my mom and bought 2 more. I bought one pair of skinny's, one pair of straight legged, and one pair of wide legged. =] My sister is at my grandparents house, so she is getting a lot of stuff, lol. I also bought three new shirts, one with yellow and white stripes, one navy blue, and one black with white ghost-looking things...idk how to describe it. My sister brought me like..5 shirts..I think. They are mostly yellow, so I now have enough yellow to last me at least 2 weeks, wearing a different shirt everyday! I'm pretty much set when it comes to that..so I'm going to broaden my color pallet. I bought a few shirts with my birthday money too, one with smurfs and a really really pretty blue one. =] I still can't believe I bought a pair of skinny's..and liked them! They are really cute, but it's hard to get them on/off because they are skinny on the bottom part of your legs...and I have big calfs..thats where the majority of my muscle is. :) Oh, and I went to St. Vincents, lol..and I have gotten two new dresses, both of which are immodest, but not so that I can't buy something to go underneath/over to fix it. lol. One is purple and the other is black. I love them both so much!

Haha..so my summer is finally starting to pick up. I got to spend the day with Travis yesterday..and we had a blast. We went bowling, I'm not very good and i was told that i bowl funny. I guess I do, but, oh well....it works for me..sorta. haha. Mmmk..after that we went to China Harbor, and then back to his house and played xbox. Lol, we were bowling with his Aunt and cousin.....then went to China Harbor where they met up with his other cousin and grandpa. =] I had fun. =] I'm so happy to finally have a job, I've been looking all summer, now I just need to pick up on everything that I'm supposed to learn. I have to go get a Social Security Card because my mom lost mine in her mom's house, so I went to pick up a transcript at ACC, because they can use that to identify me and issue me a new card. I need that ASAP, for my job. We'll probably go down to the office on Monday...and then head over to a bank to see what I need to do to open an account...I've been bugging my parents about that for a while. =]]

Ack, so play practice. I've skipped so much, but I feel like I'm doing well at them and catching on pretty fast. I hate how we don't have mutual, but instead have play practice. It's such a drive from Del Valle and we have to leave 45 minutes early....and then we don't have time to eat dinner because we're driving down there..and then we're in until 9...ugh. Its just not easy to get there at all. Then, a few people make me really feel like I shouldn't be there..and I'm not naming names, but sometimes its better to just help and not try to correct everything that's going on. I'm happy to be a part of this play and I'm very thankful for the oppurtunity, but I'm really frustrated with how the practices are being instituted. It's hard on my family and our gas bill. I don't like giving up my Saturdays...because I love spending that time with my aunt and mom. I don't know how things are working out tomorrow....but I'll figure it out I guess.

-Becky.

A book, A Message, A Thought.

Since, we don't have cable at the moment..I've taken to reading books, of any kind, shape, length, etc. Well, I just finished a book called, "Please Stop Laughing at Me..." and it's about a teenagers plight through being bullied in Middle and High School. Throughout the whole thing I was a bit closed-minded, because I don't necessarily see bullying at Del Valle. This book made me think though, maybe it's because, as the author put it at one point, the bullying doesn't affect me..so i don't care to stop it. I'm not blind, you know..if I see it I would say something or at least reach out to the person. I mean, being popular is something that I never wanted to be a part of, well, at least since I was in elementary school. I hate to be like, the problem is this or that..because of course sometimes kids are just cruel, but I think the more you try to fit in the more you tend to stick out. I tried thinking of a solution to bullying, like what would stop it..but I realized it really can't be stopped, because if you tell someone..it automatically gets worse..if that person gets in trouble, because then your a snitch. I've never had to really worry about it, because I stopped caring about what other people, high schoolers, thought of me. My goal isn't popularity..it's contentment with my friends. Bullying is a serious problem, and I'm definitely going to look out for it, but then the question is i find it..what do I do to stop it? Do I....just be a friend to the victim or take more action to stop it. I think I'll choose the former..because it's the only logical thing to do. I have friends that I knwo are there for me, so I'm not worried about what others think of me...I just don't know if I'll have the courage to reach out to someone that I don't know..someone who probably has baggage...and needs help..but as a Daughter of God..aren't I obligated to help and love everyone..to have charity towards all who are in my path? I mean, I have to do it, if I want to say that I'm truly a daughter of my Heavenly Father. I'm not afraid of it, I just don't knw if i will be able to help someone who is truly a victim. I guess we'll see how next year goes.

I still don't have a job..Ugh...prayers would make me grateful.

Job Hunting Stinks.

I've applied so many places I think that my name is plastered with a sign of some kind saying, DO NOT HIRE. I guess I started the job hunt to late in the game, I mean, I know I'm being blessed for going to Girl's Camp and whatnot, but I haven't found a job yet and I've been looking for about two weeks, that's about 20 applications and I've had no call backs yet. I'm starting to loose faith in myself, I mean, I don't look that good on an application..and no one really asks for a resume. I'm just getting so stressed because I made a deal with my grandma that I would pay my bill when I got a job, but she'd pay it until then. I don't want her to pay my phone bill..I mean..it's my bill. I'm just getting frustrated with this no job situation...I guess its better that I know now how hard it is to get a job at the entry level without a high school diploma! I'm going to college..b/c it has to be easier if you have a college degree!! lol. I'm just freaking out..but thats the basic update of my summer. I need to go down to ACC and have a hold on my account taken off..but i haven't yet..b/c i needa register for classes. Ucky..I don't wanna go to school yet.

That basically it. =]
Much love,
-Becky

Girl's Camp.

I decided I needed to post a blog about Girl's Camp, I learned so much and feel so much closer to Heavenly Father after Camp. For me, I feel like camp started on the Saturday before, with our ward Temple Trip. It was a very great experience and it helped me prepare and open my heart to the message that we would be teaching at Girl's Camp, as JC's. I was lucky enough, to be paired with one of my best friends, Stephy, and Irene, of whom I didn't know very well. I feel like we really made a difference in the lives of our girls...just because we spoke from our hearts and not so much from what we thought was appropriate. Of course, we planned some, but when the Spirit prompted we allowed it to take over, it taught me so much about Heavenly Father's path and it's importance in our lives today. I really hope that I can go to camp next year, I'm really not sure of my schedule next year, but I know that I want to go to camp, it's like a refresher and it makes me remember why I live my life and where I'm going. I really looked up to the third year JC's, especially Angela and Natalie, they were so resilient and I feel like it really strengthen my testimony to have them as my leaders. Angela gave a really great devotional that made me think of the scriptures differently. She said that the word, "Blessed" isn't the same as the past tensed form of blessed..and it really made me think..and she said it literally means "joy"..and then someone read a scripture that said, "Blessed be the name of Christ" or something, and it made me think of the Sacrament prayer that says that we take upon the name of Christ through our baptismal covenants..and it really made me realize that those covenants are because Heavenly Father wants us to be joyful. I think so many times I forget that the church isn't just rules..that's it's the way we live..that it's our future. I'm so grateful for that devotional it really touched me...as did camp as a whole. It helped my testimony grow and be strengthened...and I know it was a lot of factors..

I guess to give an overview of my week at camp, the first day, Monday, all the JC's, minus the JC's over fourth years, were at camp. We were able to set up our tents and then we sort of went to work..unloading the trucks and putting cots up in the tents. We were so lucky that we didn't have to put the cots together this year. I was really grateful for that. Then we all went swimming, did some sun bathing, etc. It was a pretty relaxing day...then on Tuesday all of our girls started arriving and that was when the real fun began. It's all running together a bit, but I loved my girls in third year so much. I am so thankful for my ward and stake leaders, they all worked so hard and I know that it was made possible by then. I'll skip up to the return of the Fourth Years, wow..it was so cool to see them all back. Ema hurt her ankle..hopefully it's not broken or anything, because she is so active. I really love my ward girls so much and they are such sweet spirits, if only they were louder about them. On Friday Night the Bishops came down and Bishop McCullough brought us each bracelets that have this years theme. It was a really cool time. Then the fireside was on Cleaving to our Covenants, I really enjoyed it. Oh, the workshop was really good. I really was touched by the message of "feasting upon the scriptures". I'm also glad that Sister Wallace could make it to camp for a few days! But anyway..and then Saturday Morning was amazing. The spirit was so strong and so amazing. I cried so much, but it wasn't a bad cry. I love the spirit and I love the atmosphere of camp, I really miss it when I get home..because let's face it my house isn't an ideal place for the spirit..

Anyway..I feel like I grew closer to Ema, Lakrea, and Irene this year..along with Torie and Taylor and the majority of my ward this year. I learned so much about them and am so happy that I shared a ward with them. They are my ward family and it's great to go and feel loved and welcome there. I know that we all have problems with eachother sometimes, but I know that Heavenly Father doesn't want that. I feel like, even after a year, the wounds from last summer aren't fully healed. It makes me so sad to see that...I was approached by two girls that weren't involved, because they realized the hostility. It makes me so sad..and I'm trying my best to make amends..but I know that everything happens for a reason and that Heavenly Father will guide my footsteps in the right path in order to fix it.

Wow, this is getting long. I had so much fun. My Birthday is tomorrow..and I'll be 17..I don't feel 17..and I'm kind of scared. I don't want to grow up. I'm going to be a senior..I'm a legal adult..it's insane and scary!! I got my gift early, it's a black IPOD, it's an 8GB. I'm excited, but I don't even have a GB of music yet..and I couldn't figure out how to put pictures on it..I'm going to have Travis help me. =]]

I love you guys.
comment please!
-Becky.