Last Day in Austin, Texas.

I leave for college in less then 3 hours. I'm so nervous and excited to finally get out on my own. I'm so very grateful that Travis is going too. I pray that everything works out.

My Last Day in Austin was spent packing and cleaning my stupid room, but it's clean now. Thank God. No more worries about that. :) When I finished, my sister and I went to the mall and walked around..and then we went and got a banana split. I'm sad that I won't get to see her everyday. :(

I'm also sad because there are people I didn't get to say goodbye to. It seems like this summer really did test friendships, because like, people who I thought were my friend didn't really want to say goodbye to me. I guess that's part of growing up..it just hurts a bit I guess. I mean, I thought I had people that cared about me, but IDK...lol. Just feeling a bit lonely. I don't think I've been a very good friend either, I guess I should learn to manage my time better, that's what college is for.

I am so sore. My muscles keep getting this stabbing pain..earlier it was my arm, then my legs...I hope I'm not getting sick or something...maybe I just need to stay hydrated better. IDK, but I will feel better after I rest a little.

Anyway...I'm just nervous about college. I kind of wish I'd have checked the mail, I won a scholarship from Freedom Scholars. It's a scholarship a friend told me about. I'm going to use it to buy books. :) Then I get my debate scholarship in the mail after I send my fee bill..home to my mama...I'm taking 16 hours this semester. My schedule is pretty full, because the max is 18. I think 16 is fine, until I get used to what I have. I have morning classes, so I need to learn not to sleep in. I can't miss a class I'm paying for. That would be ridiculous. Any advice on how to wake up in the morning?

Anyway, Love you guys,.
See most of y'all in 4 months. :)
-Becky

I can't believe..

I really can't believe that I leave for college in less then a month! Wow. I'm actually looking for ways to generate a little bit of extra money..I've found a few paid survey sites and have been looking into work at home jobs, but none seem very legit to me. I've come across some great resources, but I think the best is word of mouth, does anyone know of any survey/wah (work at home) jobs that pay decently? I joined a bunch recently, but none seem to be giving me the kind of income that I want. :p. lol. It might be a lost cause though. So far I've joined..

Greenfield Online
mysurvey.com
Palm Research
Buzzback.com
surveyspot.com
Lightspeed Panel

I know that's a lot, but I haven't recieved any surveys from Buzzback.com. And mysurvey pays like 10 cents a survey so I don't see it as worth it really. I guess if I didn't give up so easily I could make some money. :) The most successful thing I've done is mturk.com, where you do hits for amazon, but I haven't made much off of that either.

So any advice? lol. I've been looking for a couple of days, but I think my looking for something better is the problem. :) Any recommendations?

If you want to join any of these sites, I would create a seperate email account, because there are A LOT of spam emails. I created a new yahoo account specifically for this.

Wellll...thanks for any advice you can offer. :0

College Countdown and a Review.

Wow, Summer is almost over. I will be living in the dorms in a month. It's crazy to think about how short/long this summer has been. I have went through so many changes and I think I'm finally starting to feel like an adult. I'm still working on getting all of my College Loans and things taken care of. It's sort of scary to think I'm going into debt. I got my first credit card, but I haven't really used it that much, I'm going to pay it off...and then leave it somewhere not in my wallet.

NYC was amazing. It's definitely a place to visit and not a place to live. I mean, a 20 oz bottle of soda was 2.18. It cost a lot just on food and snacks alone. I have a TON of pictures though, I'll post a few and a more detailed blog later..right now I'm kind of busy and haven't got time to chat about all the ups and downs on my blog.

I'm also going to review a forum that I came across, the Health Forum has a slew of different topics to read and relate to. I personally, am not a member, but I found that much of the information is very helpful and easily related to my life. It also features a few forums that are just for fun, making the forum much more friendly and personal. A sub-forum is on recipes which can help anyone who is looking to make their lifestyles a little more healthy. As far as I can tell the forum is also very active, meaning that if you have questions people will be able to help you with the answers.

Comment. :)

Vocaboly.com

There is a new website that features Vocabulary Software, it's www.vocaboly.com. I, personally, recommend that you download the trial version before you buy. This is a perfect way to get your child ready for the SAT's or even just to help them build a stronger and more substantial vocabulary. The software is compatible with Windows 95, 2000, XP, and Vista. This is not something for small children, although the levels of difficulty vary from 0-5, each scaled so that you can use it easily and efficiently. The software also includes games, which can make it easier for your child to learn, especially if they love video games or competition. The Software seems easy to use, there is a side bar that allows you to pick what you want to work on and whatnot. Vocaboly is 39.95 and can be paid for through paypal.

I hope you enjoy this review of Vocaboly.

The media.

I have been keeping up with the Jon&Kate stuff, in the tabloids and stuff, and to me it just seems like the media is trying to turn her into this horrible mother and her husband into this terrible father. I think the problem, is that people, forget that they have done the same things. Like, maybe not cheating on each other, but like, spanking your children or getting angry...or something. It makes me sick to think that so many people make it a point to criticize this family, when they have no idea how they would respond in the same or even a similar situation. Recently, I read the article of her "hitting her child," but how many of you parents out there have hit their children before? Like, even if you had the control not to, you know that it's crossed your mind. It's stupid. Like, my parents spanked me as a child and it was for my own good. It taught me my limits and helped me grow into the person I am. The article had all these shrinks say that it was like child abuse and that the child would have psychological trauma from it..but that makes no sense. What creates the trauma and the high stress situations is the fact that the media is in their lives day in and day out. They never get a break from it.

It just really frustrates me that so many people are so quick to judge the situation and say that Kate is a horrible mother who angers too easily, but let's get our heads on straight, I know for a fact, that all mothers, I don't care who you are get angry. It's a part of life, we all make mistakes, the only difference is that Jon and Kate's mistakes are public and yours are private.

Your argument may be that they chose to be famous, therefore they choose to have people criticize them, but it's still gossip, it's still morally wrong to judge someone for something that happens behind your front door, as well as hers.

Crazy Insomniac.

I'm having a hard time sleeping lately, so I usually just lay here, but now I think I've finally worn myself out. I'm glad for that. I've just been thinking about a lot of things that are happening...and I'm just overwhelmed.

I can't believe I'm graduating...I also can't believe that my Dad isn't here to see it. Like, the saddest part is that I really can't hear how proud he is of me, for accomplishing my goals. I'm so grateful that my Dad's dad is here, he makes me think of my Dad and I just feel like he would know what would make my dad proud. Ugh, I hate how unfair life is. Like, why do some people have their entire families around them and have never felt the same loss as I have? Why can't my Dad be here, when I need him. I hate to say, but I'm kind of angry with God, my Dad was young, why did he have to go? That's immature, right? But at the same time, I can't help it. I mean, logically I know that God had a reason to call my Dad home. He had a reason to take him, He had more important things to do in Heaven. That last one is what gets me, it really does...I mean, what is more important then being there for your children? I guess, I don't have that understanding, but it really bothers me that I won't ever fully understand my Dad's reason for leaving me..when he was needed. I mean, that's a pretty earthly mindset, but I am here, on Earth and I'm bitter. I want my Dad, he was my DAD. Travis got mad at me for saying this, he said that God knows what he's doing..and that I have good and solid memories with my Dad, but I'll never have that adult relationship with him, not on Earth anyway. It just makes me so angry.

I recently started playing Fable 2 on xbox..and I'm obsessed. :) I am totally into RPG's. I've tried First Person Shooters and everything, but I really enjoy Fable. It's amazing.

Like, (from above) Don't get me wrong, I love my Heavenly Father, but I just don't understand His reasoning..and I know I don't have to, but it bothers me. I'm also very grateful that I'm graduating. I'm so relieved to get out of High School. It's overrated.

Well...Later.
:)
-Becky

Angry-Hating High School-Hopes for the Future.

I quit my job, mostly because I couldn't handle the stress of working, going to school, dealing with everything that's been happening, and I don't know. I was just so overwhelmed with everything that I couldn't handle it anymore. I felt bad, but at the same time a lot of stress I'd been feeling relating to work and hours went away.

Too bad, the school couldn't not cause me more stress. I'm so angry at the school right now. Okay, I've been sick..and they've done absolutely nothing but harass me. I didn't turn in absence notes, didn't really think about it because hey, I go to school to get an education, not worry about the school intruding upon my business. Secondly, I didn't even have the notes to turn in..so I didn't worry about it. Well, the Assistant Principal, AP for short, in charge of the attendence note thing, calls me into her office and has this bad attitude and sticks me in lunch detention, for the whole hour..I didn't go, because, quite frankly, it was stupid...and I didn't want to. Well, then, they assign me a full day of ISS, over being absent. It was completely ridiculous..I call my mom and she clears up my absences..and they tell her I'm completely clear..what they didn't tell her is that I still had to serve ISS. She tells me I'm clear...well..I don't go to ISS Monday Morning, because I was supposed to be clear. So second period, they call me in and take me to ISS. I got pissed...and called my mom..and went ot ask the AP about it..and she said that it didn't matter that my absences were cleared, I still had to serve ISS. At this point, I'm crying, because as a student, there is absolutely nothing I can say to this women to get me to listen to her...and it frustrates me...so much. My mom pulls me out of ISS, we try to get things cleared up, instead we sit in another women's office and she tells me..that..

1. I have no rights as a student, if I'm given directions, I MUST follow them.
2. That I deserve more then one day of ISS, since I'm making logical points..
3. That no matter what I say, I can't get out of ISS..and that all I want to do is argue with her about why I'm in ISS.

I'm crying so hard and she's still being Miss-I-don't-care-about-your-problems. I make a point that I'm missing more class and she says that it's helping my education to sit in ISS. And then claims that..

1. Teacher's have no impact on education.
2. The administration has the right to tell me what to do.
3. I have no rights and no say in what's good for MY education.
4. Only the administration matters in terms of education.

Don't you think it's illogical for them to stick me in ISS for being ABSENT. It's like, come on stupid...let's let you miss MORE school...and ruin your future even more by telling you that you won't graduate. They use that threat so much and all it does is make me angry. I've worked to hard for too long for them to tell me some kind of--if only I cussed--like that. They act like they can stop me from succeeding. I'll be dead before they do that. If I don't graduate, then I'll get a GED, take my full scholarship to Hutchingson Community College and then transfer the next semester. I'm not stupid and I will succeed with or without their support. It just makes me angry that they would rather suppress a student and teach them that thinking is bad rather then acknowledge the fact that sometimes things are more then just black or white. I hate how they tell me I won't be successful, sorry, I'll be successful, because I've had good parents, grandparents, friends, and teachers who have embraced the fact that I know how to think. Thank God for them, because I know that all public school teaches you is to follow and suppresses free thought. I can say that, debate, Mr. Cunningham, Mr. Tansil, and a few other teachers actually teach students to THINK.

Sorry, I'm totally slamming public school, but I see an inherent flaw in my school and it frustrates me that no one is looking for a solution for why so many Title 1 schools fail. It's not teachers or students, it's the mindset that the administration works under and right now..the one at Del Valle...sucks, majorly.

I'm so angry.
But, wish Del Valle High School CX Debate teams Good Luck at districts,
and text/call/message me if you need to talk.
Love you guys.
-Becky